I sit here for days on end. Watching motivational videos on how to become a millionaire wondering why I am so lazy. Is it because I have lost all inspiration? Maybe I just lost interest in trying to make an impact. Maybe its just August and it is too hot to write something of value.
When I look at the last unpublished article I was writing it was all about how creativity is the solution to anxiety. In the last couple month I have barely written anything. I cant say why to be honest. One thing I can say is that I have not been the fun, jovial character I was earlier on this year. It is amazing how from one month to the next my self worth can go from feeling like Richard Branson hurtling for the stars, back to a meteorite enslaved by earths gravity destined for an unnoticed and unimportant collision.
People who write about motivation and personal development generally tend to be writing about it when they feel good. The reality is the majority of audiences do not feel good. There is a dissonance between writer and reader.
I do not feel good today which is why I feel like it is important for me to write. I think it is more relatable. I felt like shit for no particular reason but still managed to bring myself round to write something.
I really do not care if any one reads this. I am however pleased with the glimmer of hope that comes with writing one thing. Even if it is miserable, at least I wrote it.